Say It Aloud

I like Lotus leaf's articles-calling post, and believe "being gay" will be a good title for this event. I once wrote in my blog that "one of my biggest ambitions is to find something remotely close to what we called happiness". I guess I am more looking for something called gay happiness. Being happy should be a statue of mind, and should not totally up to one’s relationship or partnership status. And I believe one can be happy being single. Writing this at this moment, I still don’t know what happiness is, but I know I am happy now. Being in a relationship certainly helped.

I read C's blog earlier today, and was hit by the sense of unbearable lightness. It wasn’t too long ago that I was also haunted by the sense too. One lesson I learn along the road is that obsession with big/bigger ideas might make our daily work or daily life seems to be demeaning. But those nuances accessorizing our lives indeed are what make us feel happy or might be what life truly is. Back in the Tampa airport before we left the sunshine city that left us with so many fond memories, I sat there waiting for him to check in the plane. He then noticed I was looking, got blushed and smiled back at me. I can smell the tiny happiness flying in the air back then, back then. It reminded me of ‘thinking the sun shines out of your ass’ from Juno we watched earlier that weekend. I guess it could be true that we can find someone that will like us “no matter I am making a bed or making a movie. “

PS. getting better soon…